Blind Faith?

Honey, do you want to go to bible study?
No!
Why not? dont you want to know Gods Word?
I dont need to know.
I beleive and have faith in Him.
But, Dont you want to know if you are doing something wrong?
No, Thats why I married you.
How can you put your faith in me?
I dont, I put my faith in God, that you would lead me. Thats just the way it is.
Since when is it my responsibility?
Read your bible.

While I wrestle with scripture, she just accepts it.
Accepts what?
She says God made her, directs her path, she loves Him, she accepts Christ. She wants to serve Him by serving others, and she delights in His return. She has confessed her faith before others, been baptised by submersion. She prays and trusts...what the heck else do I want from her?

She doesnt care or want to know about all the nuance of scripture. It causes a certain unknown uneasiness. Its easy to simply accept a traditional point of view and chalk it up to peace, love and obedience. In many ways it can be liberating because one can then go about their way with a certian freedom that comes with "definition" and rules.

I cant really argue with her. She doesnt want a complicated faith. She wants to know what the rules are so she can live properly. When Jesus said "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and love your neighbour as yourself", she said thanks and proceeded to live a Godly life. Whats with that? How does she know? She just seems to know. How can it be that easy?

I lived a great deal of my life beleiving this way. Having faith in the structures and the interpretations and the creeds and the values of the evangelical christian faith and church. I trusted that those before me were learned and inciteful and inspired. Accepting this unity, again is liberating and allows one to follow a united mission.

Yet in the back of my mind, in ever growing dimensions, is a nagging thought that the pieces are not fitting. I begin to question my definition of "church" and my definition of "faith".

Through this I have a very big resonsibility. I have a wife who relies on my leadership. Am I to take her to unknown grounds? Am I to shake her foundations? In our relationship and in our home, it is my responsibility to lead her in these matters. It would be better for me to tie a millstone around my neck and jump into Guelph Lake than to lead her a stray. So which path leads us astray and which path leads us closer? Do I travel a path and come back and get her, or do I simply take the path that many have taken before me.

Stay tuned fpr part 34685473762610 of the story....